What? What'd I miss?

[lynsangelic1]

Anyone who has been on my flist for any length of time know that I do indeed like to flutter off for weeks on end and then come back, posting like it’s going out of fashion, and then flutter off again.  Can’t help it.  I get distracted…

Condensed update aka Things I have been doing since gone in no particular order

 

• Went through one of my ebay phases – thus far I’ve bought: three pairs of brand new jeans for next to nothing; Battlestar Galactica miniseries and season 1 (which has been highly rec’d and I bought for a collective £3.70); a book about football hooliganism; Mamet’s Olenna; 2 Methuen play anthologies of Cartwright and Fo and the Alias ps2 game.  I’m stopping right now.  I’ve been looking at the weirdest things and it’s just time to stop.
• Working on my latest opus.  I feel in my bones that this is the one. It’s the damn one.  The bloody black absurdist post modern nightmare semi-comedic fucked up thing is it.  It has to be.  I’ve been working on this for the last six months.  I’ve been having recurring nightmares because of it.  I’ve cancelled on friends to be with it.  And lying in a lovers arms, she posed the notorious question “What you thinking?”  After secret eye-rolling, I made her reply first in order to give me some time to think about what I was thinking about – “Your nails,” she replied.  “The black plague” was my unchanged answer.  I should have lied because I don’t think she was too impressed with the truth.
• Got into Doctor Who just in time for the finale.  After being so badly wounded by it, I’m not sure that was the correct decision.
• Having weird dreams.  Not just the one caused by the latest play but another.  No remotely sexy dreams with Kristen though - confound it! 
• The recurring nightmare involved a secret society hidden under the floor boards of a pub and then the place being flooded with a gaseous sludge.  I’m trying to find this wanky OxBridge type society to save them but it’s impossible.  A police person in a gas mask runs in, handing me a gas mask and together we look.  But the sludge is so thick and it hardens by the minute.  The other person is dying, now stuck in the sludge.  She takes off their mask to reveal someone close I’ve never quite got over losing the way I did.  I struggle through the sludge to save her but it’s too late.  Taking me by surprise, she kisses me lightly and leans to whisper her last words.  But I never hear them as she either dies or I wake up.  I had this dream about 10 times in a fortnight - I always survive, she always dies and I never hear what she was going to say.  One of those dreams that really sink into you.  Horrible.  Distressing.  Glad they’ve stopped now.
• The other dream involved me jetting off to Portugal on the spur of the moment.  While waiting for a flight home, the desk clerk takes me to see the Portuguese Man O War jellyfish (Because, yes, they obviously have them in easy reach of airports).  I climb over the wall to see them clearly, standing on some rocks that jut out over the water.  The jellyfish are quite beautiful, until three of them ‘jump’ and sting my legs.  Already paralysis is setting in.  The desk clerk takes me to a hotel room and tells me that’s it.  There’s nothing he can do.  I’m dying.  So, panicked, I get on my crappy phone and try to call everyone I can as the creeping paralysis travels up my body.  I only get through to my sister and an old uni friend I’ve not spoken to in a while and blurt out the whole story, adding a ‘love you, bye’ then giving them barely any time before I tell them I have to call someone else.  The paralysis is total and I feel myself dying.  End of dream.
• When telling this to friends, they’ve laughed.  And I’ve been hurt.  The dream was pretty fucked and really frightening because (with the exception of jumping jellyfish) everything was so real. There was no stupid dream stuff or unexplainable crap.  Every detail was very life like and the paralysis was terrible.  Urgh.  Dreams.
• Became a basketcase for an hour when reading some Sarah Kane plays, thinking that I’d lost my powers of theatrical comprehension, freaking out and then tossing the book across the room.  What a drama queen (shudder – A moniker I’ve never been comfortable with)
• Filled the non-watching professional football hole with that of playing.  Such a novelty idea, huh?  I don’t think it’ll catch on.
• Learned stuff. Probably.
• Pondered the notion of what modern treason is since the Queen was visiting the town 10 miles away from me and the place was crawling with police for a week. I always find the thought that we’re theoretically ruled by an OAP with a perm really funny.  I’ve always been quite anti-royalty – I cannot justify the logic of supporting a monarch to the tune of 60 million or so a year – Although Helen Mirren softened me for a good while.  There were bikini pictures of Mirren in the tabloid the other day – they were quite worthy of a zee014 glossy picspam.  I can’t help myself – I know perpetuating this crush is damaging what little reputation I have but it’s impossible.  I’ll show you three hot Helen pictures and I’d defy anyone remotely attracted to females not to give a little smile and a whimper.  Oh.  God.  Stop.  How can I go from intellectually thinking about the royalty tax in our fragile class society to outing my long running crush over a 60 year old?  Oh.  Jesus.  Christ.
• Dyed my hair dark red.  I’m quite loving it.
• And more stuff I can’t remember or don’t want to remember…
  

And the last thing I have been doing?  Missing you all, of course.

Since my paid account has lapsed (probably will update tomorrow), I now get ads, which I normally don't really notice but this one to the very right of the post entry space caught my eye.

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WTF, I say! WTF?  Charment.

 

And now I go dallying around the flist (Thank God for the personal journal filter), so if you get a comment from an entry from weeks ago, I couldn’t help myself.

 

So, how are you?

Comments

[pokecharm.livejournal.com]

I've been gaming too! And I was wondering what had happened to you - glad you explained that ;)

[lynsangelic1.livejournal.com]

I've not actually received the Alias game yet (which I've heard is rubbish but whatever) but I did play and finish The Getaway which is difficult for my level so I was happy!

Was it Metal Gear Solid you're playing?

[pokecharm.livejournal.com]

that's all that matters - the game being a challenge for you :)

that's it...wow, the fact that you remember worries me :p

[lynsangelic1.livejournal.com]

You wouldn't believe the amount of meaningless crap I can store in my brain but get confused over whether my mothers birthday is on the 5th or 6th. No joke.

MGS good?

(and hey! The Getaway was pretty difficult! When I first got it, I couldn't get my head round the driving controls and the blank HUD to finish the first (time constrained and hard) mission so I put it aside. Pretty pleased I picked it up and completed it in two otherwise lazy days)

[pokecharm.livejournal.com]

LOL that is kinda funny :p

um, it is - but at some points, its really hard and I get turned off from playing...

I can't do driving games at all, except Grand Theft Auto :) But I'm always impressed to meet other gamers :)

any fic writing going on?

[lynsangelic1.livejournal.com]

I'm trying very hard not to distract myself with fic - I have one that's unfinished, it's about 8,000 thus far, G/Hr. It will be done, but I don't wanna get sucked in :) How you going on yours? I hope they've stopped giving you abuse :/

The Getaway is kinda GTA-esque (I'm a huge fan of GTA, been playing since the first one came out on PC in the beginning and I was only little). It has driving to places and shooting folk once you get there. Quite good story/cut scenes and thoroughly enjoyable to bomb about a realistic London with real cars. No open play until you finish the main missions though. I'm not into hardcore race driving games. Short shelf life with me.

I remember renting the first Metal Gear Solid from the video shop for the PSone and playing it over the weekend. I believe I even called the hints and tips line because I was getting so frustrated, in the days before ready made FAQ's on the net. Maybe they were there in those days, but I didn't go looking for them on the dial-up!

[pokecharm.livejournal.com]

no, it got worse over the last couple chapters...I think I'm finally getting used to the fact that some people are just going to hate me and my fic because it isn't fluff...I hope I get to see yours surface! I have to admit, your influence on my writing will be starting in my next chapter that'll be posted, not that I think you'll read it - it's H/G - but this is a Hermione/Ginny-like chapter :)

wow, it is a fun game - I need to get the latest one, I just don't have time to play that many games :s Yeah, I get a little bored without any direction.

Ah, I buy the strategy guides - always best not to get too frustrated! Wow, almost bed time...I love bed time :)

[lynsangelic1.livejournal.com]

bedtime? I'm already asleep! 2am here... :)

[pokecharm.livejournal.com]

LOL well, I get up for work a little after 5 ;)

[acoustics1220.livejournal.com]

ooo!!! I'm glad you're back! Will you be around longer than you were gone?

I like your mood pic that you chose here, I remember that scene and thinking 'mmmm, hot'. I totally had a girl!crush on SMG back in the day. And then I stopped watching Buffy because Angel left to do ANGEL, lol. I learned the theme song for ANGEL on the violin *dork* That cello playing was just beautiful *reminisces*

BTW, I get inordinately pleased to know you're around on LJ. Stay awhile, yes? ♥

[lynsangelic1.livejournal.com]

I like that mood pic as well. It was a quite sexy moment with the tai chi. I never had a crush on SMG but a boy!crush on Boreanaz. How's that for opposites? :)

The Angel theme song is lovely. I just adore the cello. I would love to play a classical string instrument but I just don't have the ear. I barely have the ear for guitar but still I soldier on...

And yes, I'll stay awhile.

[acoustics1220.livejournal.com]

Har :D GUITAR baby. I'm teaching myself to play. It's quite a joyous and proud moment to finally learn all the chords to a song.

And lol on the boy!crush. I've had this girl!crush on one girl in my class now for two weeks and I'm just like, GET A GRIP. lol

[carawj.livejournal.com]

Oh, you finished Doctor Who! Oh god, how much did that season finale HURT??

Those dreams sound really terrifying, actually. o.O *hugs*

And your this-is-the-one project sounds fascinating. So much good luck with it!

[lynsangelic1.livejournal.com]

Oh Donna. Oh, oh oh Donna. And the DoctorDonna was so fantastic. I was roaring with laughter and whooping with joy as she started spewing out advanced physics following it up with some of her trademark quips. Love.

I think she's actually the most fascinating character of the new Whoverse (because I am sadly ignorant of the old ways) because of how she changed so much. During the Christmas special, at the climax with her fiance rambling on about how vapid she was (but really just described a huge portion of women in Britain today) and then to have her be changed by the Doctor: the Ood singing songs of her, her ready to die with the Doctor in Pompeii - And then to have her reverted in the finale was heartbreaking.

Oh, why? Why Donna? *cries*

[carawj.livejournal.com]

I KNOW! I cried SO MUCH during that episode, and still haven't quite been able to bring myself to watch it a second time. Which is a shame because I had so much epic glee over the DoctorDonna and her awesomeness! Spinny daleks!

I really do agree about her being a brilliant character with a wonderful, wonderful character arc. Not to mention the fact that Catherine Tate has turned out to be one of the best actresses the show has ever had, possibly the very best.
I'm holding on to the fact that at least she didn't die - that was what had been rumoured was going to happen. And she's proven in Turn Left that she can be awesome on her own, she just needs to find it in herself, so there's hope that she will be yet. The number of fixit fics that appeared on the internet only hours after the episode aired was astounding.

because I am sadly ignorant of the old ways

This should could be remedied... ;)

[lynsangelic1.livejournal.com]

I've watched it a second time and it damn near killed me. The final Doctor Donna scene in the Tardis is just awful when you know what's coming and you can see the slow realisation in her eyes. I would agree with the best actress comment - she was magnificent. Before I watched Who and I heard that she'd been cast, I was unconvinced and thought it a bit off. But she is fantastically talented.

She's real and you're just right there with her. She can pull emotions out the bag and have it be the emotion defining moment of the episode without being over the top. That could just be me though, because I love to rewatch an episode just to see a specific moment of terrific acting.

Man, I'm full of superlatives today... What'd you think of the Rose and the human Doctor situation? I thought Piper handled the confused/torn stuff well. I know there are some out there screaming 'How could she fall for it? He's not the real Doctor?'

[carawj.livejournal.com]

Some people in fandom are pissed at Ten because of what he did to Donna. I've actually heard it said that he should have let her die. This makes my brain explode with WTF.

I was also really dubious about CT, but god did she surprise the hell out of me. It's really, really not just you. It was in Fires of Pompeii, when she was crying near the end, and I just went OMFG, she's incredible! She's doing a play in the West End this summer, and I'm giving serious thought to trekking down there to see her.

I really liked the Rose/clone!Ten situation. I thought they made it obvious, as you said, that Rose was confused and torn over it, and I loved that. It's not a happy ending, but it's one with the potential to be both problematic, but ultimately happier than the one that she had in Doomsday, and I love that too. And I'm taking the fact that she didn't kick up a fuss about going back to the alt!verse as showing that she'd made a life for herself there rather than pining, which is my personal canon. And I adored the line about how she can help him, like Ten feels that she helped him.
Also, according to Doctor Who Magazine, in the original script which was cut for time, the Doctor gave his clone self a piece of the TARDIS so he could grow his own and they can keep having adventures. *glee*

But then I like Farscape, so buying into there being two of a person and them both being the same person is old hat, really. ;)

Eheh. I am Cara, watch me babble. *g* What did you think of it? And did you like all the other companions parts?

[lynsangelic1.livejournal.com]

Ooh! Before I forget, is there a connection between Sarah Jane Smith and Mickey Smith? When I caught that from the finale, I knew there'd be only one person who could answer that (i.e. you) My Whoverse liking friends have only seen one or two components as a casual viewer (seeing all the episodes but not going much further) and really don't reach the geek level of fandom that I can immerse myself in. Pfft. Pedestrians. And I haven't been into Who for that long myself..

I liked the Rose/Clone situation because of the immensely complicated issues that will surface. The happiness at being able to be with the Doctor as a life partner, to love and to be with - but ultimately knowing that he is not the 'one'. Very good to fic, methinks.

And the growing a piece of the TARDIS makes me think of pot plant cuttings *grin*

I would agree with your personal canon of Rose being self-sufficient in making a life for herself. The character that she became over season one and two wouldn't have indicated to me she'd crumple in a heap. Of course, devastated at being torn away from the man she loves - but Turn Left shows us not only how important she's become in Torchwood but how she turned her pain into determination to get back through. I read an interview with Piper saying that she would never rule out doing more Who and that it's something she can't leave behind. I don't think it's the last of her and I'm looking forward to seeing how it's advanced. When that happens. In 2 or more years time.

How rubbish is this ridiculous hiatus? I watched all of Who in a matter of days and now I have to wait 2 years for more? That's like a major crack binge and then.. uh.. no more crack.

I never saw Farscape. I've always consider myself not into sci-fi because I don't like Star Wars or Star Trek but then I love Firefly, Red Dwarf and will soon be experimenting with Battlestar Galatica.

I am Lynsay, watch me babble too. Geeking out is good for the soul :)

[carawj.livejournal.com]

Heh, no, no connection. Just what was there in School Reunion, when they were making the cracks about needing a Smith on board. Also, when Sarah traveled with the Doctor, for a while there was a guy with them, Harry Sullivan, who was fantastic, and in my personal canon, when Ten is telling Rose in that ep that he wouldn't leaver her behind and Sarah and Mickey are sitting together, she's telling him about Harry and thus making him feel less like the tin dog.

Pfft. Epically obsessive fandom-level geeking is where all the fun is. ;D

It has been suggested in canon that TARDISs (uh, not sure what to plural there should be!) do get grown. Or, well, did. But that's a bit shaky, really, because it's also been suggested that they get built. I like the growing idea, myself. ;)

And yes to everything you said about Rose! I love you for that. Oh, you so need to be in Who fandom, because there are so very few sane people around who like Rose. And yes, very, very good for fic! Personally, I want to write Clone!Ten/Rose/alt!verse!Tosh with TARDIS growing hijinks. Also Clone!Ten/Rose/alt!verse!Reinette.
Also. This is what Rose was totally up to in the alt!verse. (http://community.livejournal.com/who_otp/163048.html) *looks shifty* ;D

The hiatus is made to TORTURE us! At least we're getting the specials next year, so there'll be something to fill the gap. Have you seen any Sarah Jane Adventures? Because that's a very good gap filler too.

Farscape is much closer to things like Firefly than Star Wars. You should give it a shot - the first season is a bit shaky, but it becomes something completely brilliant and heart-breaking. Battlestar is superb too, and really, really worth your watching.

[carawj.livejournal.com]

Psst. I have a rumoured Who spoiler. A really, really good one. Want to hear, or are you a no-spoilers person? ;)

[lynsangelic1.livejournal.com]

I enjoy spoilers when everyone's in the dark but if it's bonafide info from someone who's seen something before me then I get extremely grumpy. But bring em on! (Is it about the RTD interview when he said Amy Winehouse could be the next Doctor? I hope not!)

Clone!Ten/Rose/alt!verse!Tosh sounds fairly interesting. I keep forgetting that Tosh died (because I was extremely pissed about it at the time) but I'm not one for OT3's. Call me old fashioned ;) I can respect why people are though, because there's bundles of stuff to fic with.

I will get round to watching the SJA adventures because the finale just confirmed to me she's made of never-ending awesome, but I cannot start any new shows for another month while I buckle down and concentrate on writing. I just get too distracted ;) That's why I've had to refrain from fully immersing myself in Who fandom.

[carawj.livejournal.com]

I'm the same on spoilers, thought I'd better check. And no, fortunately it's not the Amy Winehouse one! ;p Anyway, it's here (http://community.livejournal.com/who_anon/1661.html?thread=6392701#t6392701)! *bounces all over the place with hopeful glee*

Fair enough on the OT3 front. I find it makes a lot of shipping triangles a lot easier to solve. ;) Mostly there just needs to be a lot of fic where clone!Ten meets various alt-versions of other Who characters.

I'm very impressed with your self-discipline over not starting new shows right now in order to write!

[lynsangelic1.livejournal.com]

My self discipline is shoddy at best! I'm just trying really very hard.

Here's my spoiler offering (http://www.thesun.co.uk/sol/homepage/showbiz/tv/article1437685.ece) - though it is from the Sun. And it's not really a spoiler so much as info. 1.5million for Tennant to stay? Wowza. And the Doctors daughter to return and according to the Sun she's also Tennant's girlfriend. Little bit of creepy there.